Everyone has to go and change when they become full - fletched teenagers, I’m so sick of it. God knows I’ve sincerely tried my hardest not to change one bit but even I’ve done a few things differently now and then subconsciously. We can all rant all we want about how people change and how we hate it but who’s stopping us from changing ourselves? Some of us are even completely okay with it?

Am I the only one left who thinks it’s a bad idea to abandon long time - good friends? Surely someone else thinks change and separation can be bad things. It’s inevitable that all good things do have their ends but why endorse or speed up the process?

You and I met 890 days ago, and I had really high hopes. I was just a freshman who didn’t have many people to come to and when I realized you could be a person I could talk to every day I thought you were a godsend. It’s my own fault I made you someone I had to rely so heavily on, and thus it was my own fault I fell so hard when you left. Even through everything that’s happened to us I still can’t believe your behavior. You know I try my best to appease you and as of now want nothing more than to make amends yet you continue to torture me for some macabre reason. I just don’t agree with your current life choices. I thought I had a bigger impact on you and you would actually listen to me, but I guess not. I guess two years of close relationship means nothing to you, and you really have changed.

I think I knew landon wouldn’t stay forever. He already showed signs of impending separation during middle school and I knew he would leave me for bigger and better things. I already told you about all of that. Nowadays I don’t know how to make plans with him. I could plan to do something, but then another thing always comes up for him. If his cousins come over every weekend, how does he always have time when someone else asks him to do something? I just don’t understand. Something always comes up for me, but Key Club is immaculate and holy. Why on earth would I want you to become like that. I thought we used to talk about how obsessed he was with Key club. Believe it or not, you’re moving in that kind of a direction. To be quite honest I was surprised at how sad you were your parents didn’t let you go to dcon. Nazis as they may be, you have to remember that only a few short months ago, going out during the daytime was a miracle for you. Oppressed as she was, I liked that vivien alot better.

I had alot of hope for oscar. I still have hope for him. I don’t have much to say against him either. He tells me I should know better than to text him. Well, okay, I suppose everyone else who texts him is perfectly fine then. Cool. I see how it is.

On a lighter note, i’ve begun to use my applswr tumblr again, this time just for photography and inspiration for photography. It would mean alot to me if you could check out my current work. Your feedback is feedback I value the most. But I guess you’ve forgotten what it means to have me as a big part of your life.

I know you still care about me, because you have a heart and wouldn’t abandon someone in a heartbeat like that. Please let me be right.

-Justin