I didn’t give up on homework because I didn’t feel like doing it anymore.

I gave up on homework because I know I won’t be able to concentrate for the rest of the week Because of this.

runawyitsvinnie 10:03 pm

its my 1 month

You have no idea how big an impact you have on me. why did we have to become friends why did I have to put all my trust and faith into you . Why did we become hubby and wifey only for you to leave me miserable. 

If you haven’t noticed, i tried to keep the convo alive because that’s just how desperate I am now for an aim conversation with you. 

You still haven’t responded to my post. When you read these, do they have any impact on you at all? Or do you just skim along. You mean to tell me you feel no emotion whatsoever over a person who feels like dying just because you’re not here. It may sound pathetic but… honestly? This is me. This is your former best friend. Someone you cared strongly about just a few months ago. Don’t tell me you don’t care now.

Do you know every night I still hug my pillow and pretend its you? That I talk to it and cry into it and just for a short moment believe you still love me? Why am I so pathetic Vivien. Is this normal human reaction? How could I have let myself become so attached. Imagine yourself, when you said you were obsessed with me, and loved me to pieces. And then I left you. then multiply that sadness by about five or six. Yup.

cookies . sweets . FOOD!(: serenades . plushies . apple juice . thomasngo(((: . rilakkuma&korilakkuma<3 

I pray to god that apple juice is me and not the drink. That you still care about me. But in reality I doubt it. In the battle of my brain and my heart, my heart is shattered and broken. My brain is defeated and drowning.

Fuck Life.

Honestly.

Fuck Life.

Just give me the gun. I’ll do it myself.