Ever since we stopped talking last year, i’ve been in need of someone to talk to. In all honesty no one’s been able to take your place of “daily venting person”, and all around best - friend. In due time, when we get to talk again (hopefully), it’ll continue, but for now all i’m left with is this tumblr. 

Although this tumblr is a great way to rant out my thoughts to you, it could never replace a conversation. 

This in mind, I was going to make a post about all of my current troubles and woes, in hopes you would respond with a post, offering some guidance. Seeing as you typically don’t make posts when I ask you to, i quickly forfeited this idea.

This in mind, I just want to talk. On AIM i mean. Just vent. I need my best friend back for a few days.

In short, I have alot of problems, and I need a therapist. But I need you more. 

For example, my Grandpa is dying. The past few weeks, he hasn’t been able to sleep because his body keeps flaming up with a rash, and he says it hurts and he feels as if he were on fire. 

I’ve been told his medication only makes it worse, and he has a bad doctor to boot.

I don’t know.. I just need someone to talk to. Someone like you.

And please vivien

for the sake of all that is pure

just respond to me this time. 

just let me know if we can talk on aim so i can use you as a best friend.

If i don’t get help soon

I just.. I don’t know.  I’m getting suicidal thoughts again.

I don’t want them.