December 2010
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December 31, 2010: End of a year
Dear vivien,
So, it’s the end if another one. I feel like I have to stop making so many of these because I complain too much and it annoys you.
Happy new year from your old pal.
justin
P.S: make me a post before 2011. Preferably about us, (although I do like reading the ones about your parents)
We watched toy story 3 o:
…..I miss you ><
I wish I could come give you a hug.
Your parents are getting meaner :/
just stay home more often?
You can talk to me
I miss talking to you. ><
And next Time you’re able to go out, we can go get food?
X)
I have money, and I need to pay you back.
And buy you a present.
But yeah, come talk to me about your problems, I’ll listen.
December 26, 2010: Day One, gah.
(This one will be to wifey);
Gah, I miss you.
I really really miss you.
More than you’ve ever missed me.
I love you so much still, and I want to hug you and adghbvdryjnvdfkhdv ><
I’m tearing, even on vacation because you’re not here, and not mine
I was thinking about you on the airplane… How I want to be there for your first time, to hug you and hold your hand...
December 24/25, 2010: Christmas and a Special...
Dear Wifey,
Hi. It’s Christmas. A year ago we were hubby and wifey. On Valentines day, we went to downtown disney, and walked around as hubby and wifey for our (second to) last day as. I can’t count how many times we’ve “broken up” and gotten back together in the past year, but if it meant being able to love you, i wouldn’t take any of it back.
Well, please...
Can't Sleep.
I miss my wifey ><
I still have your Knott's Berry Farm Lollipop
It’s been about two years since i’ve had it now.
I know we're not supposed to talk but
Can we? please? ><
I’m sad and depressed and lasdkjweioufhe
you have no idea
please?
><
I can’t stop crying
how is life so unfair, that it makes me so miserable and makes you so happy
I just want to talk to my best friend
please
I haven't eaten anything since yesterday
and I’m starving. I haven’t done this in so long, it hurts now.
I can’t go to the other house because no one picks up the freaking phone.
I don’t have food here.
Suicidal thoughts are creeping again.
I really don’t know what to do.
I can’t stop crying
I just want to talk to you.
Please help me
><
vivien
i don’t really want to die
UGHHHHHHHHHHH
WHY IS EVERYTHING GOING WRONG
I HATE LIFE
I WANT TO DIE
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You try living as me for a day. Then complain
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Fucking Hell.
You don’t even care do you.
just read these for a few minutes then don’t give a second thought.
It may seem unimportant, but it meant alot to me that you kept our chat log as your aim status for...
December 22, 2010: I hate Life.
Why does everything bad always outweigh everything good.
My Christmas is being ruined because i’m depressed over you, and i can’t appreciate everything good that’s happening.
I can’t enjoy anything.
Even yesterday I kept thinking about you.
I hate life.
it's already on there
and,
k then
><
hope you can come tomorrow, so i can give it to you before i leave
sigh
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, Well...
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, well that’s alright because I love the way you lie.
Don’t you love it when songs describe you?
Tell me when you wake up. Wanna go get sushi. I’m paying. and Driving.
December 21, 2010: Caroling
You know, I had a fun time today. It made me happy, feels nice to be happy once in a while. It’s great you’re watching Despicable Me, Josh keeps quoting Agnes when she says “Why are you wearing pajamas? .-.”
Especially at me, when i walk around in pajamas.
Here’s my day in a nutshell if you want to know how it went. The numbers are the numbered links at the bottom...
Mhm.
I hate irvine kids too.
Kills me.
It really does. Stabs my heart.
Even when I feel like dieing, I still want the best for you.
I’m going to go cry now.
I’ll still happily talk to you about your problems
forget mine.
I want to die.
December 20, 2010: =/
Of course of course of course if you want to talk or need to talk, you know i’m always here; nevertheless I’m sure he’d understand if you told him what was going on and stuff, you don’t need to worry about that
but my parents have been pretty stupid too..
My mom told me to come over today for a while, so i came over dressed in my pajamas, and she told me to take the out...
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WIFEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
HUBBY MISSES YOU >_______<
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i can’t stop crying
i really want a hug
><
do you still like me?
>< I'm afraid that point has come and gone
I still miss you though. But you seem so happy when you’re with him, i don’t want you two to ever separate sdjoewijfowiejf
I get all jealous when I see stuff on facebook about you, but i know it’s never serious because i’m fine a few minutes later… but
sigh
i really hope we can do Wednesday, just like old times.
Please tell me things will get better ><
...
December 20, 2010: The Death Star and Stress
Robot Chicken Star Wars III is on right now…. hilarious
is it okay that i laugh at every scene and understand all the references?
..such a nerd ><
Anywho, your little christmas present thing is become more of a hassle than i anticipated, turns out the movies will be laggy if you try to play them from the box, so you might have to copy them to your computer first and...
December 19, 2010: No Worries 'mon
My dad gave me some spending money for this week since i’m leaving on Saturday, and he gave me a little extra. Plus, I still need to pay you back!
Delicious crunchy rolls beckon you…
Should be fun, hope we can go
December 19, 2010: If you're not busy...
Wanna hang out on wednesday?
maybe get some full moon or something
as far as a ride goes… i could ask my mom…. or we could take the bus.. just like old times? i still want to show you x]
I want to give you your present privately as well since..well.. if i do it in front of everyone else, they’ll wonder why i didn’t get them presents
but of course if your...
December 17, 2010: Falalala haircut
Got a haircut today. Tis short.
But it’s okay because whenever I go to Texas with long hair, my aunt always bothers me about it, and once i just let her cut it for me. They only have a razor thing. (you can imagine the rest..)
anywho regarding Texas, my mom wanted me to stay until the 25th like always, so i guess that’s what i’m doing. I might even get to fly by myself since...
December 16. 2010: Hello
Are there any specific movies / shows you want on your movie box?
We can get virtually anything
but I can only fit about 30 full length movies on a box
(they’re big.)
or you can just make a list
let me know asap, hope to see you next week~
December 16, 2010: Sigh
Hi. I miss you wifey. I wonder if you ever feel the same, ><
probably not
December 15, 2010: NON EMO POST
I just had the greatest idea ever.
For Oscar’s Birthday…..What if……. We got him…… A giant fathead.
now bear with me, i know it’s a little pricey
but it would be so much funnier than a shakeweight
to see his reaction of a 4 ft. poster of you or me or something on his wall
I was thinking we could be sitting in robes or something, looking all smug
lol,...
Finally.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1298650/
I remember watching the third one with oscar in middle school
What is your address ?
strawberrymuncher:
qwertyasdfghjkl:
strawberrymuncher:
I need to give you a 20% off thingy for Tilly’s
Can you please go buy it for me? (the shirt)
192 Roosevelt, Irvine CA 92620
When do you need it by?
It expires the 24th.
K
What is your address ?
strawberrymuncher:
I need to give you a 20% off thingy for Tilly’s
Can you please go buy it for me? (the shirt)
192 Roosevelt, Irvine CA 92620
When do you need it by?
December 13, 2010: Couldn't help myself
Again, you don’t have to read this, but..
I miss wifey, alot ><
I was crying earlier
hubby was crying earlier.
He misses you
I’ll wait for you, and never find another lover
:/
December 12, 2010: A fourth post
Well I guess I won’t be talking to you anytime soon. I’m still going to make qwerty posts, so.. you don’t have to read them if you don’t want to. I’ll just rant and stuff, nothing special.
If you can, i’ll ask you to make posts on strawberry too.. so i can know how my former friend is doing. In fact, one by the end of the year would be nice if you can. You...
December 12 2010: Yet another post - I think it's...
I know you’ll read this, so can we just talk it over tonight please?
It gets worse every day
you can’t just keep saying you’re not ready.. because you’ll just do that to the point where we never talk again
So, if you don’t mind, i want to talk tonight. And be friends again.
If you don’t want to do it tonight, please give me a specific date instead of...
December 12, 2010: Why do you hate me
Why do you always get mad at me? I didn’t do anything at all
Where is this hatred coming from.. we used to be best friends
now, everything I do you hate me for.
this hurts me a lot more than it hurts you, so if you still care about me
can we just make up and be friends again?
I’d really like to see you before I go to Texas
and I don’t want you to hate me anymore, or be...
December 12, 2010:
I hope you read this, and depending on when you do..
Can we talk tonight? ><
It’s been long enough.. and i kinda want to do something with you next weekend before i leave
but for that to happen i think we need to.. you know, as soon as possible
and
i miss you ><
please vivien?
you can’t hate me forever.. ><
December 11, 2010:...
Bad day today. I really wish we could be friends again.
It’s kind of depressing how you get to go have fun everyday with your friends, and in your eyes i’m only a minor annoyance
yet to me I wait day in day out for you to finally come say you’re ready to make peace.
I don’t want to be a drama queen
but please make it soon vivien
I don’t know how much more of this...
Ignore the below post, I was just cranky this...
and that kinda tipped it over the edge ><
..Seriously?
I show you that picture and you say nothing, and go tell landon he looks cute in it?
…..
Am I the only one here who thinks that’s just a teeny bit mean?..
why do you do these things to me -_-
December 9, 2010:
Sort of an update kind of thing, kind of like a diary. I still hope you read it even if it’s just like a diary post, But if you really don’t care about how my day went, how i’m feeling etc. …… well.. I hope you do. So yeah. enjoy.
Not alot happened today actually, I guess if something’s particularly noteworthy, Cathy sent me a text saying Josh asked her friend...
I know that. and like I said, I don't have an...
December 8, 2010: It's beginning to look a lot...
First of all I really really really hope you read this. As much as you hate me, I’d like to give you a taste of what’s going on in my mind at the moment. We were good friends for two or so years. Kinda hoping you’ll do the same on strawberry.
Secondly, I was intending for this to be another desperate plea for you to talk to me because i’m so depressed or what not, but then...
December 8, 2010: aslkdjasfiehfoweif
I wonder if you still read these, if you even care about what I feel and think
Why do you ignore me on AIM, are you still mad about Thursday?
if so can we talk it out?
you have to realize soon you’re my only real friend at the moment.. i don’t want to lose you too ><
December 4, 2010: Can't sleep.
I couldn’t help but wonder… that paragraph about how we first met, and the things i listed what i still wanted to do with you, if you felt the same or not. My brain says no but my heart says yes. sigh.
I’m gonna go hug my pillow for an hour and cry myself to sleep again. I know you hate it when i cry and it makes me seem overly sensitive, but you have to believe me when I say...
December 4, 2010: I implore you.
Please reconsider Vivien, think about everything I’ve said. I’ll contact you later.
Don’t just throw everything away, I know you could never love me again but whatever ounce of friend care you have left for me, look to it. Don’t destroy it.
Please.
December 3, 2010: A Proposition
I originally made this last night, and then again this morning, and then again this afternoon, but when I posted all three times, it went poof. So per say I’ve done this over and over, thought about what i had to say each time, my blood, sweat and tears have gone into this. Will you accept it?
Anyway, instead of having that talk with you, I made this.It can get long and a little cheesy at...
I just need to talk to you. A real talk, no more...
I said we shouldn’t talk anymore to incite something, in hope you cared enough about me to change some things i saw unfair.
Never have I in the history of us have wanted to stop talking to you
December 3, 2010:
I can’t stop crying and shaking
please, can we talk about this
i don’t want to lose you ><
December 2, 2010:
We need to talk. But what do you care.
Last time you said we would talk about my tumblr we didn’t.
December 2, 2010:
I don’t know if we should be friends anymore, but what do you care.
December 1, 2010: -_-
Why can’t I ever be happy like everyone else -___-