October 2011
3 posts
ASDF
Just because it looks like Chinese doesn’t mean it’s Chinese nor does it mean I know how to read it. STFU - no one asked you to butt in. I didn’t take Chinese like you - you’re not even good at it.
If someone asks you for help, you shouldn’t pretend you know how to do it by rambling on about something else and then calling them stupid if they don’t get it...
Do you want to hear a secret
I never sleptover. When Kenta and Kelly went to bed in her room, and the others went off to her mom’s room, i opted to sleep on the sofa outside. At first it was because i would have to wake myself up at 6am to go home and shower and practice piano, but then i lied there for a few minutes and started thinking. I started thinking about what you said, and couldn’t help but concur. I...
I need a hug.
September 2011
1 post
Ahem
Well I talked to Oscar for you, and found out why he doesn’t like you now. If it’s any consolation.
Truth of the matter is he got tired over the same exact things i’m getting tired over every time I talk to you now. Pardon my french, but you’re such a bitch about every little thing now it’s unbelievable. Just because I met and hung out with your so called...
July 2011
1 post
No. 1 - Location Paris, France
Europe is captivating. It’s everything you see in the movies and a bag of chips. The entire place reeks of hundreds of years of world - changing history and culture, and it intrigues me to see first hand where all of this stuff in my textbook happened.
Sadly there aren’t any british guards with tall furry hats, or french mimes who wear black berets as staple attire. Strange as it...
May 2011
2 posts
Could we talk some time? I told you he would replace me and it happened. It’s just so freaking annoying to have to deal with it now. Why can’t we be friends anymore
-_-
WHY?!
I just want to lead a normal life, why can’t I be allowed to do that? Is that too much to ask? I do my chores. I recycle. I do my homework. I don’t bother anyone.
PLEASE for the love of god almighty make it stop. What did I do to deserve this, letting go of my best friend wasn’t enough? My torment must be prolonged for no reason whatsoever? Whatever god is up there, do...
April 2011
5 posts
I'll be back. I won't let them mold you into...
April 20, 2011 (pt. 2):
You’re so freaking childish I can’t believe it. You even admitted to having told me what to do in the past, it’s just that I used to let you have your way. You’re sixteen. I know for fact you understand that you can’t always get your way. So please stop acting like you’re five. I CAN stop stalking when it’s right to stop talking. You need to show me more...
April 20, 2011: Changes
Everyone has to go and change when they become full - fletched teenagers, I’m so sick of it. God knows I’ve sincerely tried my hardest not to change one bit but even I’ve done a few things differently now and then subconsciously. We can all rant all we want about how people change and how we hate it but who’s stopping us from changing ourselves? Some of us are even...
Any other person in that situation would have just...
No one ever listens to me
My parents keep using me as their messenger to tell each other they owe money.
I’ve told the both of them that I’d really rather not instigate continued fighting like this.
Sabrina and Josh don’t have to do anything but I’m always the one used to convey messages of hate.
Could you guys please either stop talking or do it through someone else?
I feel like a soldier...
March 2011
5 posts
Hi
Please stop being so hard on me. It’s hard enough trying to go day to day without breaking out in tears and begging to be with you again.
You couldn’t possibly fathom how much i miss you, you couldn’t possibly fathom what I have to go through every day. I still love you and I have to go through this? You can’t even imagine it can you?
I’m trying my best not to be...
You only talk to me whenever you need help with...
Am I not a human being too?
Do I not have feelings?
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It’s a nice feeling going to sleep knowing you’re a different person and you stole all my friends and I hate this new personality of yours.
It’s a nicer feeling going to sleep knowing I’m alone in the world and there isn’t a soul alive who...
Lyrics
Flames to dust,
Lovers to friends,
Why do all good things come to an end?
‘Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don’t break even.
While I’m wide awake she’s got no trouble sleeping.
I know you’re somewhere out there,
Somewhere far away,
I sit by myself,
Talking to the moon.
You can’t play on broken strings.
You can’t feel anything that your heart...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNzrwh2Z2hQ →
It was our best year.
Can I have a hug next time we meet? >
I miss your hugs
February 2011
6 posts
Please don't ever talk to me about pain.
Jennifer was one person. You had ten friends that were guys at any given moment.
You got mad at me for “stealing” your friends, Ariel, Emily, and Mimi. You had more with landon and Oscar then I ever had with them. How would it have made you feel if I became closer to Emily than you ever were with her?
You got mad at me for talking differently. You talk to other people differently.
...
Sick.
I need your hugs.
I need wifeylove.
blehhh ><
-sniffle-
I hope you were telling the truth when you said...
Be on tonight so we can finally talk about this.
I’ve waited too long.
You made my winter miserable.
I’ve broken down and cried more times than I have in my entire life.
Some days I wanted to hug you more than anything.
Some days I wanted to do nothing but stab somebody.
Right now I kinda wanna do both.
I love you and it hurts whenever we have to argue
But it just isn’t...
Hi wifey. Remember me?
We used to talk every day. That’s how we became best friends. We knew everything about each other inside and out.
Now we almost never talk. When we do, It’s either about Thomas or you really don’t seem like you want to talk to me. I feel stupid when the latter occurs.
I can’t wait for the day we start talking every day like we used to again. If it ever comes. I love you...
I wanted to say I love you. I wanted to say Hubby...
I wanted to say I’d do anything to be with you again. I wanted to say I break down at night too. I wanted to say I’ll wait for you. I wanted to say we’d never argue again, that anytime we did, I’d just say you were right and we would make up. I wanted to say I would love you more than anything.
But I didn’t.
I knew you wouldn’t want to hear it.
January 31, 2011: Much ado about nothing
Hi Wifey. Hubby misses you. There’s so much I’d like to say but I just can’t put it into words. I have trouble with words. It took me 30 minutes of thinking what to write before I decided to just make it this. I have to think very carefully about what I write or else I’m afraid you’d lose interest. But yeah, back to the point.
After two years of being closer than...
January 2011
20 posts
January 29, 2011: I miss the Vivien I fell in love...
The one who wasn’t popular.
The one who would stay home everyday and talk to me.
The one who I made blogTV banners for.
The one who would have done anything for a cookie.
The one who would ask me for hugs.
The one who wouldn’t go out every weekend.
The one who would listen to me if I told her she was getting out of line.
The one who guarded her heart a little more carefully.
...
Lol yes, I remember I got addicted to it for a...
Oh, don’t delete it? :/
I'm sorry I was a horrible hubby. But never forget...
I still love you very much.
I’m trying hard to let go, believe me.
I dream of someday coming home to our house in...
Ughhhh Wifey >
I’m feeling better about all of this, but asdfghjkl
I want my wifey back
I want you to love me again
I want to hug again
I want to cuddle again
“I’d do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Cuz somehow I can’t put you in the past I’d do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Cuz I know I won’t forget you”
...
My mom told him to pay mine and half sabrinas
It costs about $5,400 for that, which i know, is extremely expensive. I’d feel bad even if he did pay it.
ugh i’m tired of being their messenger though, they just use me to tell each other things. no one cares how i feel
I promised myself I wouldn’t say thanks for the hug or anything sappy if you did
but
ugh
I just want wifey right now. i’d give anything.
My dad said the Europe trip is too expensive, so...
He also threatened to sell the other house.
Can I have a hug please.
COMPLAIN
Can I just take a moment to be frank? As if I didn’t complain enough already, why does life throw so many lemons at me.
Never in my entire life have I been more suicidal, more depressed than the last two months alone. Never in my life has the urge to just end it all been so great. Every time I said I’d kill myself before this doesn’t even compare. I don’t have a single...
1/11/11 - 11:11
I wish we could be best friends again. Maybe even hubby and wifey someday.
But my wishes never come true anyway.
January 10, 2011: Fuck Life.
I didn’t give up on homework because I didn’t feel like doing it anymore.
I gave up on homework because I know I won’t be able to concentrate for the rest of the week Because of this.
runawyitsvinnie 10:03 pm
its my 1 month
You have no idea how big an impact you have on me. why did we have to become friends why did I have to put all my trust and faith into you . Why...
For Pete's Sake Vivien,
Thats
not
the
point
do you pay attention to anything else in my posts?!
you only pay attention to the parts about him
whereas i asked you to respond answering my question.
You find the very minute details that you can use against me to get mad over
stop victimizing me
forget I said anything about that
it’s not even important
every single
effing thing i do
you get mad at me...
January 9, 2011: Post Post Edit
Freak, I hate my life right now. I don’t want to sound weird but alot of it is over you. I think i’m doing better one moment, then bam. facebook post. instant depression.
Is it too late to fake sickness and skip school?
Respond to the post.
this is an edit.
January 9, 2011: Thao Nguyen Xanh, Sad Romance....
Hi. I think I’m getting a little better. I don’t cry as often anymore, but of course I still miss you. I think I’ve given up on wifey for now though. Whether or not this is good news for you, it makes me think of our pact.
The pact we made, that said we’d stop for two years. And when we both turned 18, we’d drop everything and come back together. I can’t...
Wifey.
Don’t give up on someone you can’t go a day...
It hurts too much to hold on, yet I can’t let go.
Tell me what to do.
I hate going on facebook and seeing things I don't...
Sometimes It’s better just not to know things. Save the pain.
I wonder if my post had any impact on you, other than telling me off about how you don’t love him.
Then I'm sorry for assuming.
If you truly haven’t played this love card yet, I pray endlessly you won’t. That we’ll be back together soon enough, and nothing further with him will continue.
January 3, 2011: Love is not a victory march. It's...
Hi. If you read this, please please please respond.
Dear Vivien,
I want to kill myself. It’s bad enough we’re not hubby and wifey anymore (enough normally to make me cry, as you know), but now I have five thousand other things to make me cry. You have a boyfriend. You’ve become popular. If i was 80% of your life in 2009, I’ve been reduced to .05% this year. My Grandfather...
January 1, 2011: What I'm thinking
Ever since we stopped talking last year, i’ve been in need of someone to talk to. In all honesty no one’s been able to take your place of “daily venting person”, and all around best - friend. In due time, when we get to talk again (hopefully), it’ll continue, but for now all i’m left with is this tumblr.
Although this tumblr is a great way to rant out my...
December 2010
50 posts
December 31, 2010: End of a year
Dear vivien,
So, it’s the end if another one. I feel like I have to stop making so many of these because I complain too much and it annoys you.
Happy new year from your old pal.
justin
P.S: make me a post before 2011. Preferably about us, (although I do like reading the ones about your parents)
We watched toy story 3 o:
…..I miss you ><
I wish I could come give you a hug.
Your parents are getting meaner :/
just stay home more often?
You can talk to me
I miss talking to you. ><
And next Time you’re able to go out, we can go get food?
X)
I have money, and I need to pay you back.
And buy you a present.
But yeah, come talk to me about your problems, I’ll listen.
December 26, 2010: Day One, gah.
(This one will be to wifey);
Gah, I miss you.
I really really miss you.
More than you’ve ever missed me.
I love you so much still, and I want to hug you and adghbvdryjnvdfkhdv ><
I’m tearing, even on vacation because you’re not here, and not mine
I was thinking about you on the airplane… How I want to be there for your first time, to hug you and hold your hand...
December 24/25, 2010: Christmas and a Special...
Dear Wifey,
Hi. It’s Christmas. A year ago we were hubby and wifey. On Valentines day, we went to downtown disney, and walked around as hubby and wifey for our (second to) last day as. I can’t count how many times we’ve “broken up” and gotten back together in the past year, but if it meant being able to love you, i wouldn’t take any of it back.
Well, please...
Can't Sleep.
I miss my wifey ><
I still have your Knott's Berry Farm Lollipop
It’s been about two years since i’ve had it now.