Just because it looks like Chinese doesn’t mean it’s Chinese nor does it mean I know how to read it. STFU - no one asked you to butt in. I didn’t take Chinese like you - you’re not even good at it.
If someone asks you for help, you shouldn’t pretend you know how to do it by rambling on about something else and then calling them stupid if they don’t get it afterwards. ( You do this while gaming too, it’s annoying af. )
Stop blaming the other party when it’s your fault every single time.
I still wonder why you get so much money & it’s gone so quickly.
You go from person to person using them as your transportation until you lose interest in them and find someone else.
Having interest in someone is the same thing as liking them, don’t deny it.
You like everyone you meet.
You lied about never lying. I applaud you.
Stop complaining about being ignored when you deliberately avoided me first.
I wish I could start my high school career over at Tustin.
You’re so judgmental - and you wonder why I have insecurity issues when you only look at Koreans and Japanese.
I’m too tired - tired of everything.
FFUUU. I’m so frustrated. I want to find it.
I never sleptover. When Kenta and Kelly went to bed in her room, and the others went off to her mom’s room, i opted to sleep on the sofa outside. At first it was because i would have to wake myself up at 6am to go home and shower and practice piano, but then i lied there for a few minutes and started thinking. I started thinking about what you said, and couldn’t help but concur. I barely knew this person and here I was sleeping over at her house. At 3am I got up, packed my stuff, and crept downstairs in the darkness. Without a trace, without a noise, the only witness, her dog and his soulless eyes.
Well I talked to Oscar for you, and found out why he doesn’t like you now. If it’s any consolation.
Truth of the matter is he got tired over the same exact things i’m getting tired over every time I talk to you now. Pardon my french, but you’re such a bitch about every little thing now it’s unbelievable. Just because I met and hung out with your so called “posse” doesn’t mean i’m metamorphosising into some strange social butterfly creature. It doesn’t mean i’m trying to steal your friends away from you, and it definitely doesn’t mean i’m going to stop being that weird anti - social geek you used to call a best friend. You act like it’s a crime to interact with other people’s friends, whereas in traditional society it’s completely normal.
The worst part is you do the same exact thing, over and over again. Landon, Oscar, Ben? All through me. Sure I complained about it at first, but did you stop? No sir. Francis, the list goes on. Oscar even brought up how you act like you and his sister nicole are buddy - buddy.
Point is, make a choice. Just stop being a hypocrite about it. will you A) accept things the way they are, and embrace friends of friends meeting, or B) not.
It’s your choice. I’m just warning you. I won’t hesitate to stop talking to you either vivien. I don’t associate with people who think the world revolves around them.
You say you don’t like it when your friends do this, but what friends will you even have in the end.
This is my last warning to you, check yourself before you wreck yourself.
Contact me at Justin Pham on Skype. Be sure to be an adult when you do it. I forgot to mention I also don’t associate with seniors who act five.
Europe is captivating. It’s everything you see in the movies and a bag of chips. The entire place reeks of hundreds of years of world - changing history and culture, and it intrigues me to see first hand where all of this stuff in my textbook happened.
Sadly there aren’t any british guards with tall furry hats, or french mimes who wear black berets as staple attire. Strange as it seems, the people here are normal, and lead typical lives. They work to provide for their families, and clock into the daily grind day in and day out. Buckingham Palace, London Bridge, Big Ben, The Eiffel Tower, and the Arc de Triomphe are daily sights for them, and probably lose much appeal after seeing everyday.
Despite the grandure of it all, I can’t help but fret over my own home of California. It’s easy enough to smile and nod when people ask where you’re from and welcome you to their country, but my feigned smile has too much weight behind it.
Long story short, the one chance i got to check facebook I finally realized just how much things changed. The three friends I ever got closest to are all in relationships, two of whom probably don’t know where I am right now. One discovered popularity and left for the greater life a while ago. The other two followed suit soon afterward. I don’t know why people like doing that. 200 friends on facebook mean nothing to me if it means three specific ones are lost. Call me a modern Holden Caufield, but With all your friends and events and relationship it’s hard to see why anyone would desire a life like that. The sad part is that in ten years when I look back on my youth, I’ll probably wish I did.
Having a few good people to talk to now and then is fine for me though. I can manage. Like batman, I’ll just help whoever needs it, whenever they need it. I’m a dark night, a vigilante.
As I fall asleep to the voices of frenchmen below carrying crates, I can only wonder what their lives are like, what it feels like to live in the city of love you only see in the movies.
Could we talk some time? I told you he would replace me and it happened. It’s just so freaking annoying to have to deal with it now. Why can’t we be friends anymore
WHY?!
I just want to lead a normal life, why can’t I be allowed to do that? Is that too much to ask? I do my chores. I recycle. I do my homework. I don’t bother anyone.
PLEASE for the love of god almighty make it stop. What did I do to deserve this, letting go of my best friend wasn’t enough? My torment must be prolonged for no reason whatsoever? Whatever god is up there, do you like toying with me?
I’m going to stab a freaking puppy, I’m so tired of this.
You’re so freaking childish I can’t believe it. You even admitted to having told me what to do in the past, it’s just that I used to let you have your way. You’re sixteen. I know for fact you understand that you can’t always get your way. So please stop acting like you’re five. I CAN stop stalking when it’s right to stop talking. You need to show me more respect first. You give respect and you get respect, that’s the only way it can and will work.
To show you I mean well, I won’t even get started on how you mentioned oscar. I’ll be a big boy and keep my feelings to myself to keep us from arguing yet again. Could you please act the same way?
Everyone has to go and change when they become full - fletched teenagers, I’m so sick of it. God knows I’ve sincerely tried my hardest not to change one bit but even I’ve done a few things differently now and then subconsciously. We can all rant all we want about how people change and how we hate it but who’s stopping us from changing ourselves? Some of us are even completely okay with it?
Am I the only one left who thinks it’s a bad idea to abandon long time - good friends? Surely someone else thinks change and separation can be bad things. It’s inevitable that all good things do have their ends but why endorse or speed up the process?
You and I met 890 days ago, and I had really high hopes. I was just a freshman who didn’t have many people to come to and when I realized you could be a person I could talk to every day I thought you were a godsend. It’s my own fault I made you someone I had to rely so heavily on, and thus it was my own fault I fell so hard when you left. Even through everything that’s happened to us I still can’t believe your behavior. You know I try my best to appease you and as of now want nothing more than to make amends yet you continue to torture me for some macabre reason. I just don’t agree with your current life choices. I thought I had a bigger impact on you and you would actually listen to me, but I guess not. I guess two years of close relationship means nothing to you, and you really have changed.
I think I knew landon wouldn’t stay forever. He already showed signs of impending separation during middle school and I knew he would leave me for bigger and better things. I already told you about all of that. Nowadays I don’t know how to make plans with him. I could plan to do something, but then another thing always comes up for him. If his cousins come over every weekend, how does he always have time when someone else asks him to do something? I just don’t understand. Something always comes up for me, but Key Club is immaculate and holy. Why on earth would I want you to become like that. I thought we used to talk about how obsessed he was with Key club. Believe it or not, you’re moving in that kind of a direction. To be quite honest I was surprised at how sad you were your parents didn’t let you go to dcon. Nazis as they may be, you have to remember that only a few short months ago, going out during the daytime was a miracle for you. Oppressed as she was, I liked that vivien alot better.
I had alot of hope for oscar. I still have hope for him. I don’t have much to say against him either. He tells me I should know better than to text him. Well, okay, I suppose everyone else who texts him is perfectly fine then. Cool. I see how it is.
On a lighter note, i’ve begun to use my applswr tumblr again, this time just for photography and inspiration for photography. It would mean alot to me if you could check out my current work. Your feedback is feedback I value the most. But I guess you’ve forgotten what it means to have me as a big part of your life.
I know you still care about me, because you have a heart and wouldn’t abandon someone in a heartbeat like that. Please let me be right.
-Justin
